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Date : Saturday, June 30, 2012
Time : 05:11 Title : Why can't you understand me more ..?
Why cant you understand me more? It's not like I purposely do it. But, I know its my fault for not telling, but you could ask me right? It does mean that, I never say, means I want you to ask me right? And yet, I'm happily waiting but ended up get scolded for nothing. And you even tell them behind my back. But when she called me and tell me those things, I was very upset and angry. I didn't know what else can I do. All I can do is just cry alone. However, I'm even more upset that she sided you than understand my situation. And I totally forgot that you would actually tell her. To me, it's like backstabbing me. And, I didn't even tell her anything so I could lessen her stress, and yet you this bloody dog, like a bastard go and tell her about it. How dog can you be? For me, it's like you are being damn fucking immature to tell her about the things. Don't know how to settle yourself? Only know how to complain behind people's back. I really feel that you are the worse dog ever. How I wish that you were just a child that were found from inside a dustbin. Do you know how much I wish that you were not my sibling? I feel damn unlucky and embarrassed that you're one my sibling. Forget it, no point for me to say this already. You've officially given up on me, and I have officially given up on you of that thinking you will help me and yet, nah, I should just give up on thinking that way. Forget it, don't want to pour anymore out..
Date : Thursday, June 21, 2012
Time : 07:21 Title : What a beautiful day ~
Good evening! Guess what! I had lots of fun today with band mates! Weeeee! It's been long ever since I had some fun together with the people I love! Hahaha! Well, today started off with buying the shoes, at first was a huge mess as everyone is like, talking here and there, so messy~ Argh, don't like it at all! >_< Though it is just me who find it very noisy! Hahaha! Then after that, we went to Macdonald and have our lunch there, well, was talking all the way, all was chit-chatting! Hahaha! All eating together and talking and laughing and all the fun things you can think of! Hahaha! Then after that, slowly all the juniors left after eating and some of us stayed to play catching at the hub! WAHAHAHA! IT'S SO FUN THAT I RAN LIKE HELL TODAY! IT FEELS SO REFRESHING RUNNING CATCHING EACH OTHER AND THE MOST EXCITING PART WAS, WHEN YOU ARE THE RUNNER, YOU SEE THE CATCHER, AND THEY STARTED CHASING YOU! Oh my gosh, scared the hell out of me! But still, had lots of fun today! Hahaha, afterwards when I reached home, was happily tweeting about the things that happened today, then till I saw some unhappy things.. Just found out some news about me.. I didn't know that she would hate me this much that she wants to forget all about me. But, all I want is just to see her smile and be happy everyday. But now I'm like the only one who is making her angry, sad, upset and crying too. I felt really bad about this, that I really don't know what I should do. I even tried ways not be close to her like, hanging out with another clique, so that I would not affect her mood so much. And somehow, I feel that, she has only been upset because of my presence. My presence is of a big effect on her. Maybe I should just, get out of her life. Since that she doesn't need me anymore, all she needs is just her boyfriend, her friends and the band mates attention. I'm nothing to her at all. All the times we spent together are just nothing to her at all. And, I've thought about it, maybe I should just disappear from her life. Since I'm such a bothersome, even if we were to settle this matter, I doubt that it would be peaceful. It might just make it even worse, worse of all, if she thinks in another way, means that she really will hate me to the core. Currently now, I can sense that she hates me 70% from what I've heard and see. So.. maybe I should just excuse myself from her life, so that her life would be all peaceful and fun again, without me. I AM JUST A SOMEONE WHO WILL BOTHER HER LIFE, I AM USELESS AND A NOBODY, SO SHE WOULDN'T CARE ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS TO ME OR WHAT I DO. Whatever that I did till now, are like shits. Nobody sees it, nobody sense it and nobody cares about it. It's like, doing useless things which have useless effects. Haha, I feel so dumb now. How I wish I can just disappear from this world, and go to a world whereby it's my own world where I can control everything myself. So that, that world of mine, would be peaceful and fun without any disturbance. HAHAHA, as if such world do exist. But please, if this world really do exist, please bring me the way there. I just wanna escape to a place whereby I would be happy everyday, without any worries or disturbance. Like I said, a peaceful life whereby I have nothing to worry about, and no one would worry about what would happen to me! What a beautiful world and yet, it is filled with darkness all over. I know that, one day, I would disappear from your life... (: Because, I am not your friend anymore, and you don't treat me as one anymore. Hahaha, I feel so pathetic now! I'm the only who feel this way and you just hate me and that's all you know! Alright, that's all I have to say for now! :D Nights!
Date : Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Time : 08:11 Title :
Hey guys! Today was the last 2nd rehearsal for Ignite! Hehe, well lots of shit happen today but, I still had fun together with my band mates as well as the other performing art groups! Well, we started off with having one last rehearsal in school before heading off to plmgs for the rehearsal. Ok, so when we were at Peicai, things went fine, doesn't seem to have troubles. Afterwards, when we were at plmgs, things sort of, went out of control. Things started dropping down, people not cooperating with us, well, was pretty fed up. Or, should I say that I was totally fed up with all of them? Some even came asking me what happen, so.. you expect me to just rant my anger at you? Sorry, not my style. (: I would rant it with someone I close to, but I didn't wanna rant at them was basically because, I don't want to affect their happy mood, so just let things go on as per normal. Some times really, they really need to learn self-discipline. They are like.. even more worse when they were at in school. It's horrible, I don't mean anything but, it was really horrible. Even me myself, get irritated by it, no matter who did it. Everyone was just too concern about themselves, and once they move THEIR things out, they just stand there like a wood block. And just leave the other sections out on the stage, when we don't even have much time to move. Correct that if there's lots of people moving it, it will be messy. But please, try to make an effort of doing it. And not just, after you move, stand there and chat with your friends. OMG, i shouldn't even care about this at all. But, I needed a place to rant all my angers now. If not, someone will just be my victim. I swear, I will just rant and rant and rant till I'm happy! HAHAHA, but still, our finale was quite good, but we are somehow late or something! Oops, but we did ran k! Finally, what really enlighten me today was, when my main conductor came down, he really helped us to get the idea of what we are suppose to do. And somemore, the steps that he taught us, was really wonderful! Actually, we did thought of those moves but just not how we are suppose to put them together. With just a click from his fingers, he can easily blend everything together and look more wonderful in a way! But, can tell that, our band is kinda getting more and more enthu about our 2nd part performance! So, therefore I will be even more enthu to brighten up their mood into making it better! I SHALL NOT GIVE UP! I WILL DO MY BEST FOR THEM! C'MON PEICAI CONCERT BAND! YOU ARE THE BEST! I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT! LET'S SHOW EM' WHAT WE GOT! ^^ JIAYOUS PEICAI! WE ARE JUST LEFT WITH 10 MORE DAYS TO IGNITE! WE CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT! WE CAN DO IT! WEEEEEE CANNNNN DOOOOOO ITTTTT!!!
Date : Monday, June 18, 2012
Time : 03:43 Title :
Hey guys! It's been long since I last posted anything! Hahaha! Anyways, my life have been busy with band! Recently, my school has a concert on the 29th of June, so I'm kinda excited. Hahaha, it's because it's gonna be my last year on the band as their leader as their player. Since we are the seniors, we are stepping down from our posts, and the little ones would take over for us, and of course, the little ones, I've utter faith in them! Since, I know them well and also, they have the potential to do anything as long as they are together. And of course, needless to say, they are always united as one. No matter what obstacles comes to them, they are always united together as one. That's what I love about em'! Adorable little ones, I'm here supporting you guys! So don't be afraid to do anything, as long as you have confidence, faith in yourself, as well as the rest of you in the band, you will surely be the shiniest band ever! I promise you that because, you guys are the one whom have show to me that, no matter what happens, we can always break through the obstacles and complete what was given to you! Hahahaha, if anyone of you from the band sees this, please keep it a secret! (: Doubt that they would be touched too! Cause it's too mushy for them! HAHAHA! Adorable kids, I love you! Can I say this? Mummy loves you of who you are!
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